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Seasons are changing. So concurrently so are people, outfits, places and feelings. It has become ever so interesting to me that we as humans grown and change as the seasons do as if we are inherently connected and moving and developing as one. 

Thus far in this mere few weeks of change, I have strengthened and cut friendships, packed and unpacked wardrobes, rearranged my apartment fifty plus times and question who I am everyday. Through this season I much like many people become fond of my alone time, seeking new things to create, sleeping whenever I see suit, and taking chilly night walks just to smell the peace. 

Lately, I feel as though I have become deeply connected with people when they are not speaking, in true I have chosen to sit back and look, take it all in and see people for what they are not saying and it has truly been a beautiful time. I have never known this much about the people around me rather then in this time. As a result I have come to see that the people around me have more abilities and strength then I ever knew before. 

In this time I have come appreciative of people whom reach out and the acceptance of reaching out. It feels good to be sought out and it feels better to be reciprocated for it does not come often in this day in age. A simple text will not suffice anymore. For now the era of cell phones and instant communication is becoming less of a luxury and more of a disrespect. And it seems to be more of an issue than a solution. People now-a-days are becoming more interested in what things were like in the past than with the future. Virtual time is interrupting real time in a very serious and negative way to the point where I want to leave my phone in the car if i go to dinner.  But like any socially plagued young adult of this day I am always faced with the question "what if?" thus bringing me to fall into the horrid habit of carrying my phone with me 24/7. 

Now maybe this is all random, or maybe I am just ranting because its been an ever so long day and I am a beer deep with hookah still on my tongue. But I am excited for this time, I am ready for change, I want to defeat this time of cell phone anxiety, and I want to mold myself into a fresh carefree being in which I used to be. I am tired of this cold world getting me down. 

So here is to a time of many hugs, soy lattes, puppy cuddles and cookies. May I continually study the act of being warm till I fully attain it mentally.